I am so fucking tired of talking about my gender.
Like fuck,it is what it is, and I’ve figured it all the fuck out, I don’t need to talk it out or explain it to some fuckhead cis people.
And like, I am always cool with med students being present etc etc
but the fact that cis people want to work with youth with gender issues, and mental illness,
like fuck. Fuck that.
I feel so fucking objectified all the time. Why do I have to jump through hoops, and go through all these motions just to get hormones? Who’s business is it to decide for me what I can and can’t do with my body? Whether I really am trans?
No matter which way you swing it, it is gatekeeping. And I hate it. I’m tired of it.
I feel like a lesser human being. These people are all observing me, taking pity on me.
And of course they’re not going to understand my relationships either, and try to fit my queer relationships in to their tiny little heteronormative boxes,
"So you’re gay, as in you as a man?"
YES FUCK MOVE IT ALONG
why the FUCK does it even matter? You’re here to assess my god damn mood disorder, why do I have to explain my gender and sexuality to you? “That sounds really confusing.” No it’s not fucking confusing, I fucking live it. It might be confusing to you, because you expect me to fit a certain set of “symptoms” but FUCK YOU, THIS ISN’T A MENTAL ILLNESS. YOU CAN’T ANALYZE MY GENDER LIKE A MENTAL ILLNESS.
I just. Feel. Like I constantly have to prove myself. And go through the same fucking story, to appeal to stupid fucking cis people who feel they have a right to my story, and a right to fucking DOUBT me.
I am not an object. I am not a mental illness. I am a person. I am a person with a gender, and a mental illness, that are SURPRISE SURPRISE completely separate from eachother, and I DON’T HAVE TO TELL YOU ALL THIS. Especially when you’ll never understand it, and you’re going to try to HEAL me for having relationship dynamics that you see as negative because they’re not normal monogamous hetero feelingless nonesense. Nobody has that. Hetero people don’t even have that. Go fuck yourself.